What does actually privilege mean (?)

 Name : Eduard Nababan

A Person Who Awakens the Sleeping Soul

     I failed, I wasn’t happy about the puzzle of life faces across. most of the time when I looked at myself in front of the mirror, I realized that I had gone quite a bit and discovered a perspective revolution that was very distinct from that parent’s perspective and most people too. I survived and put up with thoughts that I didn’t want when I was a kid and that’s quite tortuous to be honest. My village, the place where I came with the hardships of life and the people around me formed someone who is a young age and came face to face with the trash reality of life. I present this story to my mother who works with minimum wage to support their kids, me and my sisters. Sometimes, I think how does the person who win the birthday lottery and how do those with a harmonious family, good financial, good looking and those who are more fit and conform to our social standards feel? And all these things began to lead me to the question of what I really want and achieve in this life.

     After years of introspections with life full of emotions, experiences, the expanse that exist in society and as an ally of academia. I looked for many studies and journals that have been done to prove how actually humans should act to improve the quality and standard of their lives. They do research in all specific aspects for sure. And I found an unsurprising discovery that people who win the birthday lottery which goes hand in hand with the priviledge’s power will be more appreciated and accepted by its existence. This made me wonder what is the use of me living in this world again and what exactly are the things that i should look for? I haven’t won the lottery, I have bad financial, I’m broken home, underprivileged and my family even lives at my relative’s house. Because all these things disturb my mind and my life in the present so I do another research. Thankfully, I never gave up on finding a way for myself to be more appreciated, live in peace, and deserve the happiness like them. I learn from every lecture that instills knowledge to me and I try to craft a foundation of my character using the experiences from my village and its people’s behavior.

 

   I find reality that the most peaceful and happiest are not those who have won the birthday lottery and are privileged. But those who are always grateful for the little things existed and all that they have in life. I try to make all these to build upon myself and heal my wounds and learn how to ignore the dark thoughts in my head to be the same like others. I figure out the Socratic’s ways to be grateful and achieve happiness in life. He says “the secret of happiness, you see, is not found in seeking more, but in developing the capacity to enjoy less” also Aristotle says “suffering becomes beautiful when anyone bears great calamities with cheerfulness, not through insensibility but through greatness of mind” and now I dare to say out loud “Thank you mama, life, the worst thing that happen in life and the people who are involved in it, you made me human, the one who understands how beautiful life really is. I win.